Five Stones game

This game bonded my dad and I.

He started off with telling me how he demonstrated his skills at Plaza Singapura, as it celebrates the past in conjunction with the GSS.

I remembered having bought a packet of 5 Stones to play but which I rarely did. I took it out and he showed me how kids of his era played with them. At that moment, I realised I had allowed him the chance to go back to being a kid and to share with me his childhood pastime. It was a really nice feeling sharing this game with him. At that moment, our generations dissipated into naught and the game was the focus. It is another one of the memories I share with him to treasure, when he goes back to our Father.

I shared with him how I played as the kids of the 1980s did. I remember two versions of it. I was taught the easier version due to my hand-eye coordination problem. His version was "the original" one and it was also the complicated one. Shamefully, I couldn't even get past the first step. I couldn't catch all my stones. He could and he had, in front of throngs of people at Plaza Singaura. I am so proud of him! This deserves to be shouted out from the rooftops and I will do so on FB!

Affirmative realization

The best way to love a man is to be his best friend; his confidante.
I have reached! I think there is awareness too...

Bar Refaeli - single and available

"I look great. I'm cool. So what's wrong with me? Why am I alone?"

Looking good and being on-trend do not ensure you will gain a life partner. The criteria is more than just these superficial factors. Doesn't she realise that? Apparently not.

"She lamented her inability to land a stable boyfriend, future husband and potential father to her children." - as above.

What she says next in the article reveals the reason why she cannot get attached to someone on a serious basis.

"She has even offered some advice to handsome men who want to try their luck..." "Her turn-ons include...physical fitness..." "I'm very interested in going out with someone who is big and strong and famous." "I see him and I could melt, she said of (Ryan) Gosling..."

Her emphasis is on physical and worldly attributes. Enough said.

Different places in the heart

The new has succeeded in entering the door of the heart, albeit just within the entrance. There is a place for the new and there is an element of its noticeable absence. Fondness is existent and has led to subconscious yearnings.

However, there is an awareness of the disparity and the unsuitability present, due to the lifestyles and the perceptions kept.

Also, there is a definite seeping in of the old. It has penetrated so deeply into the heart that pain is felt when there is a knowledge of suffering. It has become so bonded and intertwined with the sinews and recesses of the heart.

Love is not measured by time in some cases but 12 years is so much more compared to 1 year. They encompass ups and downs in their intensity, both on singular and mutual bases. The treasure box storing such moments is full to the brim.

Progression in interaction

It used to be that there was unnaturalness and awkwardness, especially on my end. With bonding events, I have loosened up and can interact more freely, interspersed with verbal teasing. I am starting to show normal treatment, the way I really am towards my friends.

It is nice to know this. :)

Treasured Intimacy

It has come to a stage where physical intimacy is more natural and comfortable. I am not referring to the bestial context but to the harmless, sweet and inadvertent context.

To me, it belies more of emotional intimacy and has divine purity injected into the perception of it. Ultimately, without it, the emotional intimacy has never gone away and facial expressions still reveal it.

A bonus is that courage was finally summoned to reveal true and deep feelings hidden within for some time.

The intertwining of two different people

Somehow looking at the new reminds me of the old. I am starting to develop deeper imaginings, even to the point of the subconscious's nocturnal workings. Still, it was nice to experience the classic manners of a gentleman for a short while, even if it was purely to offer help :)

To be objective however, the new is not the old. I think thoughts of the old have clouded my perception of the new. They are dissimilar. Their characters, singing and speaking voices, and inclinations are not the same. It is perhaps really the qualities that I look for, which the new somewhat possesses, that draw me in, though he cannot surpass the old. The old ultimately wins.